I cannot take this anymore

Disclaimer : This is a rant and may be offensive to some

Back when I was living in Singapore, I worked as a Multimedia Educator and used to teach students on how to use software applications. Normally, I’d demonstrate to them first, and then they’ll do the practise together with me and then I’d task them with an exercise towards the end of the lesson to gauge their understanding.

Theoretically, that sounds reasonable right? But normally at this point of time, the class will be chaotic with :

MISS MARINA! IS THIS HOW YOU DO IT?

MISS MARINA! DID I DO THE EXERCISE CORRECT?

MISS MARINA! CAN YOU PLEASE SHOW ME AGAIN?

It wasn’t bad if it was just one or two students. But imagine 40 kids all screaming the same thing. Sometimes I feel like Dexter with an entire room filled with hyper Didis

If they had paid attention in the first place, they would be able to do their tasks at hand easily. Instead, these kids are distracted by surfing to websites like lovecalculator and whatnots.

But in anycase, most of the times I had to be patient and understanding because they are kids after all, and their attention span is way shorter compared to a mature adult.

And a couple of years later, I’d have messages and emails from former students and many of them would say things like “Your lessons were so useful for my school projects. I wish I paid more attention in your class!”

And secretly I’d gloat inside. Just like how every parent gloats when their kids have their own kids.

Don’t get me wrong. I do enjoy teaching. I find it very satisfying to share my knowledge to others and even more when these people appreciate and do well in it. I just find it very disappointing when people, whom I know are intelligent and have the capacity to think, don’t even try to put two and two together.

I don’t think that I am asking too much. But like I’ve mentioned, these are kids with short attention span and I’ve to be patient.

But how about adults?

Ever since I’ve been living in Rome, people, mostly random strangers mind you, keep asking me to recommend them hotels, bed and breakfast’s as well as other type of lodgings. “Oh! She lives in Rome! And she’s blogging about Rome. Therefore she must know everything there is to know about Rome. Let me email her! And since she’s *just* a housewife, I expect her to reply back to me immediately.

Lets think of it this way. You are a Singaporean. You live in HDB flats all your life. And all of a sudden you have a friend from overseas asking for recommendation specifying for a  cheap and good hotel. And you think to yourself, “I don’t know. I’ve never stayed in one.” And then you think to yourself, “Maybe, I should help her anyway because she’s my friend” and then you do search on google and tripadvisor and wonder, “This is so easy! Why couldn’t she have done it herself in the first place?

I get this with complete strangers every. single. day.

It’s very frustrating for me. Moreso because I’ve already blogged my piece on “Tips on visiting Rome” and if these people would have just taken the time to do a search, 99.99% of the time, their questions would already be answered.

I don’t understand! Is it so difficult to do?

Instead I’m constantly bombarderd by people who messages me thinking that I have so much free time and expects me to hold their hand all the entire time and spoon feed them the answers with a cheerful endeavour and smiles like this :))))))

NO! Not any more! I am really tired of all these people!

Listen, I may be a housewife, but contrary to what you think, I’ve a lot of wifely duties to do – grocery shopping, tidying up the house, laundry, and whatnots, Italian classes to go to and this takes up a large part of my time.

And through experience, when I do reply back to them, they don’t even have the courtesy of responding back with a thank you. I’m sorry, but whether these people know or may not know it, but they are plain RUDE and thanks to these people, I dread to reply to any messages at all!

It’s just not worth my time. What do I even gain in return? A favour? A postcard? A following on twitter? On facebook? A comment on this blog? A small thank you?

NO! These people get what they want, and then they disappear. What? How ungrateful is that?

Go away and leave me alone. I’ve already reached the threshold. Don’t email me and don’t message me if you have absolutely no intention of being polite to me.

Next time I do, I’ll just point them to this blog post.

Sidenote : Not to be completely negative, I did meet plenty of nice friends through this blog which means that there ARE nice people out there. Thank goodness for a bit of sanity or else, I will go crazy!

Attack of the clutter monster

I’ve only been living in Italy for about two years and already I’m starting to have problems with my stuff cluttering. I don’t think that I have that much clothes and shoes and make up. But just yesterday, I was trying to find my green top but after 10 minutes and not being able to find it, in my annoyance I pulled out EVERYTHING out of the closet and rearranged everything.

When I was done, I felt as if I was Cathy, proud of my arranging skills and wanted to call a friend over to show off my neat and tidy closet.

But one thing that come to mind was that, gosh, there are so many clothes. Some of them I haven’t worn even once because I’ve forgotten about it and some are clothes which doesn’t fit my taste, of which I’m packing it up to be donated.

The thing is, unlike Singapore where all my clothes were summer clothes which I wore every day, Italy is seasonal country and thus I had to have sets for Spring/Summer and Autumn/Winter and so, there will always be a conglomerate of clothes lying in the closet for 6 months.

And that’s the same for shoes too. My boots for the cold season and my wedges. flats and heels for the warmer seasons.

Do you see my sexeh red Enrico Coveri wedges on the left there? I actually forgot about it and left it in the store room for over a year! Bah! I’m going to wear it now in the house for at least an hour. After all, I should maximize everything I own, right?

This makes me realise why I didn’t buy any clothes at all while I was back in Singapore (also the fact that Italian clothes fit me better). While I would love to have more clothes and shoes and bags and make-up, its impossible for me to make full use of them.

In fact, I’m throwing away some of my babies right now.

Sigh. My pretties. Some of them aren’t even opened yet but since all of them are over a year old, its better just  to chuck them away.

Just don’t look back, Marina …

A future room makeover!

I was in the study room a couple of weekends ago minding my own business when suddenly Cart came in the room with a swiffer and then rearranged his computer table. All the while mumbling and moaning and all dramatic like.

What on earth has gotten into you?! I looked at him incredulously. Cart hated doing housework you see, and it wasn’t usual to see him mucking around with the house’s feng shui.

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This is how the room used to look like. Now that Cart has positioned his desk at an angle, covering the fish tank, this room now looks like an office!

Breathlessly he showed me this :

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Eh? What is this?

Breathlessly but proudly he announced, “Now that I’ve shifted my desk, look … now we have a space for a sofa-bed!”

And then he showed me a Mondo Convenienza (its like an Italian version of Ikea) furniture booklet to the page with the sofa-bed that he was eyeing. It looks like a regular sofa, but when you push it accordingly, the hinge releases a mechanism and becomes a bed!

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We were at Mondo Convenienza yesterday to see how it looks like in person and it was actually large enough to fit two Asians.

Oooh! I could just picture how it will look like in the study room. It would be a huge improvement compared to the air-bed that we used while hosting our friends. I’m contemplating to throw it out even … Just read Jerrick’s comment

But if the sofa will be shifted there, where will my computer be? And then I started to get excited. Since my touchsmart could function as a television, we could put it up on the bookshelf and we could find a laptop stand or something for the wireless keyboard and mouse and I could do my computing work straight from the sofa!

Classy!

I’m liking this idea already. So much so, that I’m willing to give all my babysitting and tuition money to fund for this makeover … hehehe! Yes, I’m totally brainwashed by playing Restaurant City.

I hope we could do this in time before we host Daphne, her sister and Nick in May

What’s in a name?

This is an interesting topic that Zoori has brought up in the last blog post.

Unlike our Western counterparts, the Malay naming system is usually First name + Bin (for males) or Binte (for females) + Father’s name. Indians have a similar naming system too. They’d have a First name + son of / daughter of + Father’s name.

Anyway, while I was working in Singapore, I was always addressed as Ms Marina. Once in a blue moon I’d be called Ms Noordin, but I’d be quick to point out that that’s my father’s name.

Once a Malay woman gets married, she has a choice of adopting her husband’s name or keep her own name but be called a Madam instead. My mum for example, she’s either a Mrs Noordin or Madam Sariah.

I know its a polite title. But the thing is, I’m not too fond the label, “Madam”. It makes a woman sound so much older and sterner and unpleasant. I keep thinking of a woman in army uniform commanding her troops to polish their boots, while they scream in unison, “Yes Madam!”

And now that I’m married, sometimes it feels odd when former students continue to call me Ms Marina. And yet, I just can’t bring myself to label myself as Madam Marina. How oppressing it sounds. How ominous it sounds. How … old

Or I could adopt Cart’s last name. But it feels so awkward to me. Don’t get me wrong, Cart has a beautiful last name. And it does sounds quite elegant to be going around being called Signora Marina D’Andrea. And yet, at the same time, I feel kind of unpatriotic to my own Malay-ness by doing that. Maybe it is just me?

Lets put it this way. You are working and your boss lets you know that you have a new co-worker joining you and are informed that her name is Marina D’Andrea. And you think to yourself, “What a pretty name!” and start to imagine a blonde haired Caucasian woman with blue eyes who will be your future co-worker.

And then psyche yourself up so much and then finally … you find out that she’s a Malay … Eh?! What an anti climax! Wouldn’t it be wierd to you? Or is it just me thinking this way?

It sounds awkward enough with parents naming their kids with colourful names like Siti Rihanna Binte Abu. Or Muhammad Beckham bin Bakar.


Danial Alexander Shah Ahmad Mawi bin Abu. Why didn’t you reply when I called your name, sweetie? Because at home, daddy and mummy calls me boy!

I’m just not accustomed to it.

I’m feeling bitter that I’m not considered a ‘Native English Speaker’

I’ve been so engrossed in doing some online learning that I’ve neglected to blog regularly for a while. And now, after several weeks of sleepless nights, I’m finally done with my TEFL course and now I’m certified to teach English as a foreign language 🙂

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It probably sounds strange because prior to coming to Rome, it has never crossed my mind to teach English. But after two years of living here, I was starting to get restless. I miss being able to contribute my skills and getting paid for it.

Ever since I’ve lived in Rome, I’ve been looking at online advertisements like wanted in Rome and sent in my resume, some to companies finding English speaking travel writers, some looking for someone good in social media who are English speakers. But with the influx of people coming into Rome, jobs like that are snapped up quite quickly.

And that was when I contemplated to teach English. As much as I preferred to teach computing, it seems that there is a higher demand here for English teachers. I tried sending my resume to a few private schools. And tried to a few more. And then to a few more after that.

No response.

The last straw was during the beginning of February, after I’ve sent my nth resume and nothing happened. Not even a reply to tell me that I was rejected. It was very frustrating. This gives me the impression that 99.9% of these private schools are only wants Native speakers.

What does Native speaker mean? Does it mean that only people coming from countries like USA and UK, Australia and Ireland are considered Native speakers?

I strongly disagree with that.

I do consider myself as a native speaker because Singapore is an English speaking country. Even though we have a mother tongue, we are educated since young in English and we communicate to each other in English. Many of us are able to balance our bilingual trait. I myself feel comfortable speaking in Malay to my parents and English to my friends. Perhaps we might not sound English because of our accents. But it is English.

Its a huge fallacy that just because one does not come from an “English” country that they are not able to speak English well. In fact, only 3% of Britons speak queen’s English while the rest of the population speak in a mix of cockney and all sorts of other regional dialects.

But I can understand why too many Italian private schools have that perception. If you wanted the best Tom Yum Goong, naturally you’ll think of Thailand. The Best Sushi? Japan. Best Pizza? Italy. And so on. It’s a strong mindset.

I do understand.

But it doesn’t necessarily mean that it’s true the entire time. I just cannot accept that ONLY Italian people are fantastic pizza makers for example, and ONLY the Japanese are great at making sushi.

And so, I started to take up my online course more in anger than anything else. I felt so maligned and felt judged that I wasn’t even given a chance. I needed to do something to prove that I am just as qualified.

And so I took an online course with i-to-i TEFL course. I’ll probably write more about my experience in another post but all in all, it has been a positive one.

Of course learning in a class is superior compared to learning online. But despite what many might think, it’s not necessarily easy. There are pre-requisites for being certified and for me, I was required to pass all my modules. If I fail one module three times, regardless of which level, I’m out of the course.

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All in all, I think that online learning isn’t for everyone. It takes a lot of self discipline to sit down and study and write your homework without being distracted by external factors.

In the end, perhaps my certificate might not be worth it in the end because it’s an online course but with the new knowledge that I’m equipped with, I feel more ready to teach.

At the moment I’m tutoring two kids. Things look fine so far. And I’ve been trying to apply the new things that I’ve learnt and my long term goal is that they do better in school. I’m looking forward to having more students if possible. Teaching has been quite enjoyable for me and I’ve always liked sharing my skills.

As for private English schools? I’ll just give them a passover for now.

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I hate angry birds

At first, it started off with this really funny video I watched some months ago :

Amused, I showed it to Cartcart.

A month later, we went to Singapore and the first thing that Cart did was to scour for a new handphone. Eventually he bought for himself a Nokia N8 and immediately fiddled with it. And you know how boys are when they get new toys … He started to talk incessantly about his phone.

And when we had dinner together with some friends, he was so engrossed with his phone, he doesn’t talk or socialise with anyone at all. He didnt even noticed Mintea‘s awesome tee shirt when I mentioned it to him. By this time, she was already long gone

But I had to be understanding. After all, it is natural for someone to feel extremely excited at acquiring a new toy. I’d probably act the same way too.

But then not too long after that, Cart decided to install Angry Birds in his handphone.  At first I was amused. But that quickly turn into alarm when he played it ALL the time to the point that he spent the entire weekend trying to get a high score.

Just picture your partner, ignoring you 90% of the time playing Angry Birds, playing it the first thing as he wakes up and the last thing you remember as you go to sleep is “Weeeeeee!”  and “Woohoohoohoo” and “na na na na na nah! na na naah naah naah!”

Sometimes I feel like cutting off his angry bird. Good thing he seems to be slowly waning off from that bugger!

Italians like to karaoke too

Ohai!

Thought that I’d dress up a little since it was valentines day. I look *cough* sexeh *cough* don’t I?

Anyway, even though I’m not all that overtly enthusiastic about Valentines day, it’s nice to take a break from our regular routine and have a nice evening to ourselves.

And knowing that restaurants will be insanely full and overpriced, we headed to this modest place called Squisito which isnt too far away from our place. Having eaten here before, I was enamoured with their seafood pasta.

I ordered the Valentine’s day set meal and while the food wasn’t bad …

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My potato and fish dish (the fish is hidden underneath the potato) was quite nice …

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And I really liked my orange cake dessert …

It was really really really hard to talk to Cartcart over the loud KARAOKE singing. I thought that only Asians liked karaoke

Check it out :

Yes, please dial 62353535 to vote for this singer. Hurry!

How does one have a romantic dinner when one has to scream to their date the entire time?

If you liked this post, you might enjoy :

:)

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Just a couple of years ago, before getting married, I’d be webcamming with Cart regularly. Now the role has been reversed with my family.

I suppose this is a long distance relationship of another kind.

Adventures of cooking Italian food! (in Singapore)

Remember the post about trying to find Italian ingredients in Singapore and how very challenging that experience was? We had to go to 3 different places just to get the ingredients that we needed for our open house event.

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For today’s post I would like to share with you what happened the following day which is our first time experience on cooking for 20 odd people Italian food in Singapore. And I would have to say that if it weren’t for my patient friends, it would have been a total and utter disaster.

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The day started fine enough. I woke up, went for a shower, scooted off to Mustafa Center for a bit (we needed a mixer and that was the only electronic store which was open at 8 am) and by the time I was back, the living room looked rather tidy courtesy of my mum – I have a magic mum!

After that, together we tackled the kitchen. Mum offered to cook Nasi Lemak as a back up food (in case anyone didn’t like Italian food) and so it started, the peeling, the chopping, the frying, the squabbling. And eventually the kitchen looked like a war-zone with the sambal splatter on the walls, the kitchen table full of opened jars and cans and the sink full of dishes.

Cart was being pretty smart. Instead of joining us in the kitchen, he secluded himself in a spot and started to make his tiramisu, supervised by Janet the cat.

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We were so engrossed with our tasks at hand that I didn’t notice the time. By the time that we were done with the Nasi Lemak, it was 2 pm and I haven’t even started with my cooking. I started to panic a little. Guests would be arriving in two hours. I can’t finish cooking in two hours!

I took a deep breath and tried to go into the zone and started on making my meatballs and when those were done, I started on my lasagna. I was so engrossed in cooking that I didnt realise that it was raining till my first guest, Daphne arrived. I looked out of the window. It was raining so heavily that we were close to needing to use a kayak to travel around.

And then the guests started to pour in. I felt a little embarassed at the state of the kitchen. I wanted to be all glamorous and calm and collected and the whole shabang when my friends arrived. Something like this, complete with all the hand flourish.

Instead I was a bit of a wreck. With the kitchen looking like a riot till the point that there were utensils in the kitchen bathroom, Nick exclaimed, “Why is there is knife in the bathroom?!” I felt so embarrassed each time someone sauntered in.

Don’t get me wrong, I was really happy to see my friends again as it has been a while since I’ve seen them. But I was really stressed out as I’ve got a long way to go before I was done cooking and I was getting restless.

I had to ignore my newly wedded cousin and her husband, and a couple of my friends had to leave before I was done. Argh! I wish they would have stayed a little longer. I wanted to chat with them when I was done! 🙁

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I didn’t even manage to take a picture of my ex-schoolmate Jamaliah, so I’ll just add these cupcakes that she gave me.

Luckily for me, my friends started to open up the games that they have brought along with them. Lets see, Sarah, Lina , Xinyun, CC, Robert, Daphne and Jasmine here got down and busy playing monopoly deal.

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Whereas Adrian, Nick, Hendri, Renhao and Justin Lee here are playing another type of card game. I’m not too sure what it was called, but it came in a cool bullet shaped case. While Justin Ng kept himself busy playing on his hand held. He’s too high class to be playing card games :p

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Janet the cat also became a form of distraction as suddenly the annoying cat was the star of the show! Everyone seemed to want to pat her or took pictures of her. Interestingly, she never ran a way like she did during hari raya (as how my siblings recounted)

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So that gave me a little more time, as they busied and distracted themselves. But the worst part was to come as I was trying to bake the lasagna.

I switched on the oven. And suddenly the entire house plunged into darkness. There was a power trip! Instantaneously, 15 odd people yelled out, “WOOOIIIIIIII!!” and someone scrambled to pull the main switch back on.

Oh. Must have been a jinx. Lets try it again.

And again the entire house was plunged into darkness. By the third time, I gave up and with my arms flailing, “I CAN’T BAKE MY LASAGNA? OH NO! WHAT DO I DO NAO!?!?”

Stupid lasagna.

Mum looked at me sympathetically, “Let me call up my friend on the 7th floor (we lived on the 9th) and see if she’s free” And a few minutes later she said, “You’re in luck! She said that she has to leave in the evening, but she’s free till then”

And thus my mum took my lasagna and went downstairs. And I felt relieved.

But a few minutes later, she came back up again with the lasagna and announced. “No go. Her oven is smaller than this tray”

What?! I felt so frustrated and helpless.

Luckily for us, the tray was made of aluminium and Cart started to use his muscular stranth to fold the tray into a smaller size. And off my mother went. And a few minutes later she came up again. “It still doesn’t fit!”

I was about to just give up on the bloody lasagna. But Cart, in his mathematical and engineering mind, started to calculate and then folded the tray even more than I thought it was possible. This time round, we both went downstairs to the lady’s house to see if it would fit.

Third time was a charm! Success! We let it cook in the oven for about 45 minutes and finally started serving the meatballs in the meanwhile.

The meatballs didn’t turn out the same as how I’d make it in Rome on account of the different quality of the ingredients that we found (we couldn’t find regular breadcrumbs for one, and instead could only find panko?!) I think the taste was acceptable anyway.

And I relaxed and finally had the chance to catch up with my friends. They were complaining at how difficult it was to find my parent’s place and that it was raining so heavily but for the sake of the food, they came willingly :p

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And I watched them amusedly as they played Raving Rabbids on the Nintendo Wii. Most of the groups were screaming, laughing and having fun psyching up each other. Adrian claimed that he was the Ravin Rabbids king even :p

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But there was one group consisting of Justin, Ridz and Justin, which was silent fully concentrating on the game. Not screaming at all! These were the ones who were the most competitive, I think. Leaders of our tomorrow.

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And in no time at all, the lasagna was ready and then it was the highlight of the dinner – Cart’s Tiramisu!

Okay, at this point of time, I have to admit that the pictures of the meatball, the lasagna and the tiramisu are not from the event because personally, I thought that all three of them didn’t look right. Thus I’ve BANNED everyone from taking any footage of the food.

Nevertheless, I really did have a lovely time re-bonding with my friends and laughing and just having good, simple fun. I genuinely hope that everyone else enjoyed themselves too, despite all the mess up’s that happened. And despite all the horrors in the kitchen, the food were duly lovingly cooked

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And as you can see, I look completely stoned out at the end of the day. I feel blessed to be surrounded by the people that I love though.

The end.