Will I ever reach my dreams?

I have something to confess.

I didn’t do all that great while in school.

Wow, what an old picture, I dont even remember many of the names of my classmates

When I was in secondary school, I was extremely involved with my extra curricular activities. I was in the choir, the girl guides, the English drama club and a member of the student council and I didn’t have the time to revise and had to repeat an extra year.

And when I was in high school, despite all advice given, I decided to take the science stream, rather than what I was familliar with. I reasoned withΒ myself that I’d have more choices of courses when I graduate. But my artistic mind could not cope with the utilitarian subjects. In the end, I flunked before I can reach my final year. I never did my A levels at all.

I remember someone who told me that all the doors are closed for me, to entering university. That it was the end of the road for me.

Was I ashamed?

Definitely.

There I was, older than most of my classmates when I should have been promoted. I felt inadequate.

At my age, I should have started on higher learning. I see my peers making it, when I kept asking myself, “Why not me?”

But at the time, I could not see myself going on. I gave up my battle and went on to study IT and then started working to where I am at today. I pushed away all thoughts of high school.

Pretty

Fast forward to 2005, I saw an advertisment for the Singapore Airlines stewardess position. Having wanting to be one during my teenage days, I scrutinised the requirements.

They required a minimum of A levels! I was shell shocked! I decided to do something about my lack of credentials. I wanted to challenge myself to see if I still had it in me to be a stewardess before I hit 30.

But every private institution that I know of were extremely expensive. I could not afford them.

Coincidentally, at the time, my cousin Hizam, recommended me to take up the night classes at ITE as he was taking up the courses there too.

My General Paper Class with Mr Chako, Oct 2006

Taking up the course, I was grateful for the subsidized education, being of a person with limited resources. I could not understand why there wasn’t more people signing up for these courses. The lecturers were just as or even more experienced and qualified as the ones from the private institution.

When I finally took my A level exam in December 2006, I had a sinking feeling that I wouldn’t do well. I really didn’t have the time to revise. It was extremely challenging to work and study at the same time.

Just recently, we received our results. I only had 1A and 3AO passes. That wasn’t good enough to enter university. I got moody for a couple of days.

But after a while, I thought to myself. ‘I managed to get that results without studying, imagine what will happen if I took the exams the next time. I never did take the A levels prior to this.

ITE isnt offering any more A level night classes from 2008 onwards

I surfed through the ITE website again and noticed that they will not be continuing with their A level courses any-more starting from 2008. It’s such a shame that the public now has no subsidized education. But it was understandable. There wasn’t that much demand for it, moreover, the syllabus will be changed in 2008.

I took it as a sign.

After much contemplation, I think I will take the A levels again. I can make it! I know I can.

I’ve long abandoned my desire to be a flight stewardess. Now I realise that I have a calling for the arts. It just has been dormant for a very long time. I really want my Humanties Degree. Truely. And I really want this with my heart and soul.

Maybe this is like my riding license. I never made i the first time, but my deep desire to ride a scooter pulled me through, and I never gave up. Now I’m a proud owner of the scooter of my dreams.

Baby Scooter and me

I think if one really desires for something, whatever it can be, they should just persevere and carry on till they get it.

I will do it. I will persevere.

p.s

I think I should be taking SATs too, to increase my chances of entering the university. Gosh, take a look at these sample questions. They are so simple, that even *I* can do it.

A special lottery is to be held to select the student who will live in the only deluxe room in a dormitory.

There are 100 seniors, 150 juniors, and 200 sophomores who applied.

Each senior’s name is placed in the lottery 3 times; each junior’s name, 2 times; and each sophomore’s name, 1 time. What is the probability that a senior’s name will be chosen?

Hey, I did this ultra fun VRML thing for cybertown, it dances and stuff :D

That’s secondary school maths level! Peanuts man. Just peanuts. πŸ˜€

10 thoughts on “Will I ever reach my dreams?”

  1. don’t sweat it.

    you are very intelligent and pretty darn funny (which once again gives credence to your intellect).

    it truly takes discipline to devote oneself to the benign and ordinary. Smart people like us get easily bored with jumping through hoops.

    cheer to you!

  2. no one believed in me when i flunked my 0’s nor in ite, now i’m where i am now due to few ppl believe in me

    yeah i believe in you … it just takes one

    dun get emo on me now … we ‘old birds’ can still show the young ones how to do ‘it’ … haha

    gd luck

  3. Oh, you were in the ITE night class too? So was I! But I went there to do pure history and lit. And Uncle Sha is right, it only take one person to believe in you, and that one person was my lecturer at the night class, and as a result, now Im doing something I love and I believe I can go and soar to further heights! So can you, press on! =)

  4. Shane

    Oh my *touched by what you said*

    I dont think I amount to what you said, but many many hugs to you, dear friend πŸ™‚

    Nana

    Yes, we can do whatever as long as we put our minds in it πŸ˜€

    Sha

    Thats why you’re a hero in my eyes. You’ve achieved things that most people cant even start to imagine.

    Well, unlike many young ones, we’ve already graduated the university of life …

    Vania

    Oh you went there too? Which year? Maybe we’ve already met in real life πŸ™‚

    And I’m really glad that you’re doing the things that you love. its such a great place to be πŸ™‚

    Nana JR

    Ok

    Senior = 100 x 3 = 300
    Junior = 150 x 2 = 300
    Sophmore = 200 x 1 = 200

    total chances = 800

    Senior chances = 3/8

    Simple, see πŸ˜›

  5. Oh yeah?

    If it’s peanuts, then why can’t I do it?

    Rawr!

    Anyway, continuing to what Vania says, yeah!

    You can soar to further heights if you just do what you love, which is art-ish and press on!

  6. I was in the night class in 2005? Hm, oh,my classes were conducted at ITE Bishan? Hehe, so I don’t think we’ve met but we can always meet up one of the days. =)

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